If you can see your path laid out in front of you step by step, you know it’s not your path. Your own path you make with every step you take. That’s why it’s your path.-—Joseph Campbell

Dealing with the Doubts

The relationship between commitment and doubt is by no means an antagonistic one. Commitment is healthiest when it’s not without doubt but in spite of doubt.   Rollo May

After a day of feeling good about being on the ” right track,”  the Doubts creep in during the night.  Argh.

“You do know what you’re getting yourself into, don’t you?”  Firin Doubts asks.

“Um.  I think so.  What do you know that I don’t?  Wait, don’t answer that.”

Yesterday I ordered the computer I fell in love with at Office Depot last week.  But I didn’t buy it from them.  Instead I  went to a computer repair shop recommended by a friend because I need the guys that come with it.  I’m ready to plow into some heavy duty writing and messing with a temperamental old laptop that weighs twice as much as any currently on display at the four stores I visited is too distracting.  I had done my research and it was time to act.

“Well, what about that blog you started?  What are you trying to prove with that?”  Fuller Doubts adds.

“Prove?” I think.  “I hadn’t thought about what I was proving.   I’m a writer.  And writers write.  The last time I committed to a blog for a year was a good thing. Quit with your questions, please.  I need to get back to sleep.”

When I first get up I write morning pages, then head out the door for a Jazzercise class or a walk.  The blog begins when I return.  Actually that’s when the writing of the blog begins.  Ideas have been percolating long before that.
“Is that all you need to do to call yourself a writer?” Evan Moore Doubts queries.

I roll over, ready to get back to sleep.

On Labor Day (an idea I got from Barbara Abercrombie’s A Year of Writing Dangerously) I will begin my collection of  “school stories,” anecdotes from the university seminars I facilitate, the beginning teachers’ classrooms I visit, and a neighborhood after school program with which I work.

In spite of this family of Doubts.

The new computer!!!

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