Just as the wave cannot exist for itself, but is ever a part of the heaving surface of the ocean, so must I never live my life for itself, but always in the experience which is going on around me. Albert Schweitzer
When I get overwhelmed or afraid, I pull in or zone out. It isolates me and keeps me “safe” in a less than satisfying way. I want something different.
Yesterday as I was slipping into “flight mode,” I watched the experiences around me that trigger this reaction–watched them and watched me. In the story and aware of the story. I was mentally journalling to stay present. It wasn’t comfortable. I wanted to pull away and pick up the notebook. And it wasn’t easy letting go of spinning thoughts as I went to sleep.
But this morning I see what I am doing. I say I don’t want to continue these isolating habits. Writing practice (this time without the pen and paper)is showing me a different way.
Thanks, Dr. Schweitzer. Today your quote begins my day.