A rigorous new assessment plan for our state’s public school teachers is being implemented this year, and we in the college’s education department want these new teachers prepared. I need to make some changes in this semester’s intern seminar.
During yesterday’s meeting of supervisors for the college’s student teachers and interns, many of whom are retired teachers, I hear concerns. Experienced teachers in the schools are having concerns too. Change is not easy.
I want to keep my focus on the children.
Children are the living messages we send to a time we will not see. John W. Whitehead
Usually when we hear or read something new, we just compare it to our own ideas. If it is the same, we accept it and say that it is correct. If it is not, we say it is incorrect. In either case, we learn nothing. Thich Nhat Hanh
A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it. George Moore
Last night’s worry—money. Specifically, how would I pay the bills that continue to come in? Just as I think the outgoing is not ahead of the incoming, two new bills arrive. How could I have forgotten the homeowner’s insurance is due? And what is this bill from the oncologist? I thought my insurance covered that yearly visit.
This morning I wake with my Muse encouraging me to apply a bit of creativity to my financial woes.
Ah, yes. I was a hippie from the sixties. I was resourceful. How did “life” get so expensive?
I begin to make a list. I can let go of cable television; it’s certainly not earning its keep.
Eating out will be scaled back…drastically. (Except for Sunday morning breakfast with my brother and other important celebrations!) I can eat healthier with simple foods at home.
Most of the things I enjoy cost very little. Writing, reading, walking in the park, being with friends, working in the garden.
Just watch the change, Laura. Apply a bit of mindfulness to the needs in your life.
Just as the wave cannot exist for itself, but is ever a part of the heaving surface of the ocean, so must I never live my life for itself, but always in the experience which is going on around me. Albert Schweitzer
When I get overwhelmed or afraid, I pull in or zone out. It isolates me and keeps me “safe” in a less than satisfying way. I want something different.
Yesterday as I was slipping into “flight mode,” I watched the experiences around me that trigger this reaction–watched them and watched me. In the story and aware of the story. I was mentally journalling to stay present. It wasn’t comfortable. I wanted to pull away and pick up the notebook. And it wasn’t easy letting go of spinning thoughts as I went to sleep.
But this morning I see what I am doing. I say I don’t want to continue these isolating habits. Writing practice (this time without the pen and paper)is showing me a different way.
Thanks, Dr. Schweitzer. Today your quote begins my day.