I’m back…with trepidation.
Tomorrow I’m the featured writer for a writers’ group where I was once an active member. I’ve announced to my present writing group that I will be reading a couple of poems (not my own) and an essay (to be mine) “Why I Still Write.” Gulp. What was I thinking? Now I get to wrestle with that durn question.
Why do you still write, Laura?
Um, does morning pages count as writing?
I would think so. Do you write anything else?
Lists, lots of lists. And ten minute writes with writing buddies and my writing group.
Well, I’ve been steadily working on a story, five pages or so a day, but although I wanted it to be a novel, not about me, I’m all over it. Plus, I don’t know much about the details of structuring a novel and that part gives me the creeps.
So, back to the original question, why do you still write?
Because it seems to be when you appear, and I like talking to you.
And, when I do spend time talking with you, I seem more confident when I’m in public. My voice works better, like I’m not so self-conscious.
What does that mean?
What do you want it to mean?
That I said something worth thinking about.
OK, so writing for you is confidence building?
Yeah, but is that the only reason I am still writing?
I don’t know.
That wasn’t the answer I wanted..
Sorry. Why don’t you take some of that confidence out in the “real” world and see what you find. We can talk about it later.
…we all need the reassuring and healing messages that treasured rituals provide. Sarah Ban Breathnach